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Saturday, May 23, 2009
Wishlist

Sometime I need for a change, it is time to plan for my future... really tired of living life day by day haha sometime just get so overwhelmed by work in camp it just exhaust me... really tiring though

1) I wanna get a scholarship
I kept thinking I could not get one cos of what I did for my A's it shut down many doors to scholarship but I must believe I can get... should learn to find my way ard and not relying on my parents le..

2) I wanna improve my English
I kept admitting that my english is not that good hmm but not improving it does not do any good :( so have to improve it cos uni will need even more of english when writing of reports and I taking up psychology hmm confirm cannot go ard without proper english. Must buck up for that!!

3) I wanna know more of God and His Word
That is a desire yet sometime I find it hard to keep by it everyday sometime when very tired or in face of temptations I do set my priority wrongly... Sadly gotta strengthen my faith even more and seek more of Him.

4) I wanna to be better in my temper
Sometime in camp it really pisst me off for somethings, especially when unjustified stuff being done onto me and my friends, some anger that I never felt for very long le. I must learn to control my anger. Sometime it is hard in an enviroment that is stressful and full or bombardment, I wanna try!! I can do it.

I guess that I what I want for the time being.

I wanna to believe all these can be done, Amen

{6:47 PM}
~Guardian Angel~

Saturday, May 2, 2009
Lost

Sometime things just seems so weird. I dun seems to recall things happening in my life... time just pass and go. I no longer feel excited about things that is going to happen. Somehow whatever I found in the process will be lost once it is over.

Hoping for the desire to burn in me once again. The coldness is wearing me down but I just cannot get the warmth in me. Somehow it is a struggle in me deep inside. A desire torn apart by nature. An escape that brings me no where. The passion and love is distorted. The wish for it to heal is diminishing.

It really makes me wonder what will I become upon immerse in such environment. Can I still care and feel for others? It hurts to see but it is no longer painful. To the extend I do not know how to console. Sometime it is wearing me out. I don't really feel it when I am back. Sometime I wish I am never back. How I wish for someone that makes me feel back. I am thankful for one thing and very lost for the other.

~Emotionally shutdown me o me~

{8:07 PM}
~Guardian Angel~

My Astrology

Sun Sign: Capricorn
Sun 29° Capricorn 19' 		Capricorn Horoscope
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Moon Sign: Cancer
Moon 0° Cancer 00' 		Cancer Horoscope
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Rising Sign: Cancer
Ascendant 12° Cancer 07' 		Cancer Horoscope
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